I can feel it (' ' ,)

" Berikanku cinta, hapuskan hati yang lara, bertahunku tunggu, bertaut cinta yang satu"..Opss,memang dah puas cari lirik lagu Siti Sarah Raisudin ni, puas digeledah pakcik google.Still tak jumpe, cuma masih ade bait-bait lirik yang melekat kat kotak ingatan nie..So,kalau salah..maaf ya, saya hentam saje..hahah..

Treetttt...tetiba Che A'a nie feeling - feeling pulak kan?..hahah.Adess..i feel bad and sad behalf of my friends yang baru lepas break up dengan encik bf diaorg. Yeah..bila u have been together almost 6 years, dah tahu hati budi masing-masing, kenal family, bergaduh-gaduh, baik balik, mengamuk, baik balik, meraung siang malam,then baik balik,habis hormon berlaga-laga, muke naik kedut sebab asik merajuk, cerry-berry coz tekanan dalam perut..just because of LOVE and BF..at the end BREAK UP!! Owhh.. i can feel it, how it's hurt..tambah-tambah break up at age 25-26-27??It's disasters for a girl.As u know , at this age,nak cari lelaki yang free and available nie, amat la sukar..so percentage nak jumpe dengan lelaki yang boley bagi spark!!!..mcm firework dalam bedio Kety Perry..tak semudah macam main mercun bawang ok...You and I need time. Nak recover dari kekecewaan itu pun dah ambil masa...Owh, saya dah pernah rasa..Eee..seram & sakit.

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::Flash Back::

It's not easy decision bila nak mintak clash..(Tipu,..sebab everytime gaduh mesti mitak clash hahaha)..Tapi nak mintak dilepaskan bila U rasa macam U sorang je beria nak bercinta dengan die. And dia??Mcm kayu..takde rasa..and U dah mula rasa letih and rasa that he doesn't need you in his life..that make u think again and again..Are u sure, you want to be with this guy for the rest of your life??......Pop!!Then U have to move on..Macam saya, saya berkeras mintak putus sebab 5 years..is enough.I hate bergaduh,then baik balik..tak sampai dua hari gaduh lagi, for the same reason..i hate bergaduh, dia pun benci dah nak pujuk. Pada awalnya, still nak tunggu..because..5 tahun kott..bukan senang tau. Kalau kawen, ade anak 2 org dah babe! Sebab ANGKA tahun itu yang membuatkan terus nak tunggu..dan tunggu..Tapi bila berfikir balik..boleh ke nak tahan macam nie untuk 4 tahun lagi??Macam mana kalau at age 26-27 clash??I have nobody, most of my friends dah kahwin..and my secret admire pun dah lari..mamak smiley pun dah balik India??Then how can i find someone to replace him??Then at age 22.Let's break up!! BREAK UP! Ur time is done! Let's give another chance to someone else!GAME OVER..ahhaha..Then I said to him,"If u still can't figure out, whether you want to marry me or not, u just let me go..it's better dari kita break up at age 27 and u find another girls yang muda and hot cili panas-panas dari I and I??kerepot sensorang!!"..hahah..macam ganazkan??then..we broke up after a year..( He need a year to make decision..mmg sengsara hidup!)

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After that,bermulalah episode banjir membanjir..nangis,,nangis and nangis..Haha,ko (aku) mitak clash, ko sendiri yang nangis ape hal!? (marahkan diri sendiri)..I can't control my tears, air mata asyik nak keluar..On that time, memang tak boley dengar radio, asik nagis..semua lagu rasa ditujukan untuk diri sendiri..aiseeyyy.Rasa radio tu macam dok menganjing nyanyi lagu sedey,macam happy for my split up day.Pernah naik kereta abg, time tu nak pergi makan, ade lagu Allahyarham Sudirman " Kesian dia,kesian die..kesian dia.." terus nagis..sakit hati,rasa lagu tu macam menyindir..ee..mmg benci lagu tu.Dan,pernah mintak tolong my bestfriend call, kejutkan Subuh, sebab dulu-dulu ex bf yang kejut bangun Subuh,selagi tak dengar bunyi tepon..selagi tu tak mo bangun.Haishh..teruk lah ko Sarah! But that life..kan??

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Ape yang saya boleh cakap, if you wanna cry..u just cry..nak mengamuk..ngamuk..You will be better in time.After a day,month,year you will be better..trust me..And believe he doesn't deserve you and Allah/God have create someone better for you.Doa..ok..

Ha,ini die lagu yang lirik kat atas tu..ok..Sila dengar and lelaki di luar sana.Take note, please think behalf of your girlfriend or girlfriends feeling and condition.Thankss